I’m tired. I feel like maybe this is part of a ten-step program, the acknowledgement of the problem. So here it goes, my name is Catherine and I’m tired. Deep down, bone tired. I know I am not the only one felling this way. Sometimes I think I can just outrun this fatigue, but honestly, I can’t.
I am sure there is more than one cause of this tiredness. The constant monitoring of my health to make sure I am not sick. The continual washing of my hands. The constant canceling of plans. At this point, my calendar is pretty much empty, except for two weeks coming up.
I am tired of working more than one job because I started a company in the events industry and well 2020….
I am worn out because I am always worried about my kids, husband, parents.
I’m exhausted because, for some reason, I go onto social media and ….. Do I even need to state more on this?
I am tired because I don’t go to the gym to exercise, because I am too tired. And yes I know if I exercised, I would be less tired. But I’m too exhausted to make it out the door. With a side of is it really safe to work out at a gym?
I am tired because I see so much loss around me—a loss of income, life, health, community.
This isn’t something unique to me.
I think we need to acknowledge the constant strain of this year is having on us. As a society, we are just tired. And there appears to be no solution coming anytime soon.
I certainly do not have a solution. But I am hoping that by acknowledging that I am not ok. That I am tired, physically, emotionally and spiritually from this year, that I will be able to find a way to live around this feeling. To move forward with it, since I don’t seem to be able to leave it behind.
On that note, I am heading outside for a walk and then maybe a nap. I may even leave my phone behind. ? Nah, that is just crazy talk.
Take care of yourself.