I Failed 2020

Dead End sign

I have started my annual review, and I just have to say, I failed 2020. Yup, no bullshitting here, I just didn’t do very well this year, and if I am honest and needed to give myself a grade, I would be hard-pressed to say I earned anything other than an F.

I do not say this lightly or to be funny.

I simply did not rise to the challenges this year gave me. In fact, I crumbled under a few of them. I think this grade was fairly earned. Continue reading “I Failed 2020”

Just Another Day

Computer, notebook, flowers, coffee mug

Today is just another day. It isn’t a holiday. It isn’t a dreaded Monday or a fun Saturday. Today is just another day.

How many of us woke up and moved forward with our lives just like we do any other morning? We have our routines, and today is no different than any other day.

Today, you may be on your first cup of coffee, or maybe your fourth cup (me)! Perhaps today, you have already exercised because that is part of your routine. Maybe you have sat quietly and meditated. Gone through your emails or checked social media. Just to discover it is just another morning of people complaining about the government, someone has a birthday, someone lost someone they loved. Continue reading “Just Another Day”

Hitting the Reset Button

Alarm Clock

I have had a hard time hitting the reset button. It is easy in so many ways to stop a downward spiral; you just need to stop and restart. Hit the reset button, so to speak.

Yet, December, or maybe most of 2020, has been a bit of a wash. I mean, the year started out well. There was a bit traction in my business. I met with artists, had positive responses to emails, had conferences scheduled, and then everything was canceled. Continue reading “Hitting the Reset Button”

Going After What I Want

Computer & Breathe coffee mug

It appears I stopped showing up. I stopped moving forward, and I just stopped going after what I want. And I don’t mean in a holiday craziness kind of way. I just haven’t even done the everyday things I had been doing.

I pulled out my weekly planner, where I write down my daily to-do list. It starts on a Monday and then goes through the week. When I looked at it, the last week I had used it was the week beginning November 30.

It had been almost four weeks since I had last used it! Four weeks! Continue reading “Going After What I Want”

What Do I Want?

We have arrived at the time of year when I start to question, what do I really want? Or maybe the question of what do I want begins with the holidays. I guess it could be the chicken and egg thing.

For me, I don’t really want a whole lot of things, at least material things. Yes, it would be nice to do some projects around the house, which I guess are material things, but mostly, I am all set.

What do I really want, and how do I make sure my life is aimed in a direction towards what I want. Continue reading “What Do I Want?”

A Drive-by Christmas

Christmas House

This year was a first for us, a drive-by Christmas celebration. Since I met my husband in 1985, we have spent all but two Christmas Eves at his parents’ home. And those two times, we had chosen to spend the holidays in Florida with just the six of us together.

Last night was the first time in 35 years; we have not spent the evening eating, laughing, sharing, and spending the evening with his family. Continue reading “A Drive-by Christmas”

Being a Beginner

Beginner Ski Hill - Beaver Creek

Being a beginner at something is interesting. You have no built-in belief you should be good at it you are just learning.  Most likely, you are willing to learn and take instruction. You may get a coach or take lessons.  You read articles, watch videos and listen to the experts on how to do this new thing.

Being a beginner brings a willingness to listen, to practice and to fail. Continue reading “Being a Beginner”

Play – Maybe We Need to Get Back to Playing Again

Snow Boards - Play

I remember as a child being sent outside to play. We were called in to eat lunch, dinner, or do chores, but we needed to play outside most of the day. As an adult, when was the last time you went out to play?

It has been a long time for me too!

And yet, so much of life is learned through playing. We learn about being competitive, fair play, rules, working as a team, or just what you are good at. Or maybe more important than what you are good at, something you enjoy doing.

If this season of “pause” has taught me nothing else, we all need to spend more time playing. Continue reading “Play – Maybe We Need to Get Back to Playing Again”

The Undone

The Undone List

My list of all of the undone stuff is overwhelming. And what is worse, most of the undone tasks don’t even make it to the to-do list anymore!

It’s strange how there always seems to be something I just don’t want to do. It may be something I perceive to be hard; it may be something unpleasant. But mostly, it is just stuff I am procrastinating doing. Continue reading “The Undone”

Doing the Hard Things – Walk Away From the Cupcake

Chocolate Cupcake

Doing the hard things are well, hard. Not that doing them is difficult; it could be simple to do, yet hard to do at the same time. Like this, explaining something in circles.

Doing the hard thing could be saying no to something you want to do but know you shouldn’t do. Like eating a cupcake is easy and choosing not to is hard. At least for me it is. But if I want to have the energy to get through my day and honestly, be able to button up my jeans, I need to do the hard thing and walk away from the cupcake. Continue reading “Doing the Hard Things – Walk Away From the Cupcake”