I have started my annual review, and I just have to say, I failed 2020. Yup, no bullshitting here, I just didn’t do very well this year, and if I am honest and needed to give myself a grade, I would be hard-pressed to say I earned anything other than an F.
I have had a hard time hitting the reset button. It is easy in so many ways to stop a downward spiral; you just need to stop and restart. Hit the reset button, so to speak.
Yet, December, or maybe most of 2020, has been a bit of a wash. I mean, the year started out well. There was a bit traction in my business. I met with artists, had positive responses to emails, had conferences scheduled, and then everything was canceled. Continue reading “Hitting the Reset Button”
It appears I stopped showing up. I stopped moving forward, and I just stopped going after what I want. And I don’t mean in a holiday craziness kind of way. I just haven’t even done the everyday things I had been doing.
I pulled out my weekly planner, where I write down my daily to-do list. It starts on a Monday and then goes through the week. When I looked at it, the last week I had used it was the week beginning November 30.
It had been almost four weeks since I had last used it! Four weeks! Continue reading “Going After What I Want”
Being a beginner at something is interesting. You have no built-in belief you should be good at it you are just learning. Most likely, you are willing to learn and take instruction. You may get a coach or take lessons. You read articles, watch videos and listen to the experts on how to do this new thing.
My list of all of the undone stuff is overwhelming. And what is worse, most of the undone tasks don’t even make it to the to-do list anymore!
It’s strange how there always seems to be something I just don’t want to do. It may be something I perceive to be hard; it may be something unpleasant. But mostly, it is just stuff I am procrastinating doing. Continue reading “The Undone”
Doing the hard things are well, hard. Not that doing them is difficult; it could be simple to do, yet hard to do at the same time. Like this, explaining something in circles.
Doing the hard thing could be saying no to something you want to do but know you shouldn’t do. Like eating a cupcake is easy and choosing not to is hard. At least for me it is. But if I want to have the energy to get through my day and honestly, be able to button up my jeans, I need to do the hard thing and walk away from the cupcake. Continue reading “Doing the Hard Things – Walk Away From the Cupcake”
Sometimes, you don’t know if what you are doing is making a difference. You show up every day but don’t see a change.
Sometimes this is because the work you are doing is creating small changes—nothing you see with your eyes. But over time, others will see the difference. An example of this might be working out, you don’t see the 10 pounds you lost, but others notice it.
Other times, you just do work you believe in and hope someone gets value from it. But honestly, you may never know in your lifetime unless someone tells you.
Today, someone reached out to me through my DMS. My posts on Instagram had inspired her to create today. I have been posting daily for months, hoping someone would get value from what I was posting. I would never have known, but someone took a moment to send a message. It meant everything to me.
So there are two important ways making a difference in this story:
1. Keep showing up and doing the work you believe in. You may feel like you are speaking into a void, but someone is getting value from your work. And honestly, your daily practice is making you better.
2. Let someone know when something moves, inspires, or even makes you laugh. Your kind words may be the difference between someone continuing their work or stoping it.
And doing the first can cause the second, which in turn causes the first. And life is just a little bit better.
Be blessed –
What if I am wrong? I have been thinking about this a lot recently. What if what I believe to be true is wrong?
How does my thinking and actions affect my life? Is this a significant problem if I am wrong, or will it merely be a setback with my plans?
What if I was wrong to start my company. What was the worse thing which could happen? I left a job, which I had outgrown, but paid me fairly. I would lose this stability, but I was also going to leave anyway. If the company did not/does not work, I will have gained a lot of experience and will go back to working for someone else. Continue reading “What if I am Wrong?”
Let’s face it, rejection sucks. It sucks when you are excited about a job, and you don’t hear back. It sucks, even more, when you have an interview for a job, and you don’t get it. I don’t know about you, but I tend to take that personally when I meet someone, and I think things go well, but they don’t.
As much as it sucks getting rejected from a job, it sucks way worse when it is your own company or freelance business. Not getting a job, not getting clients, not gaining traction, well, it is hard.
It is even harder now, with so many businesses struggling to stay open, the budgets they used to have to buy, just aren’t there. Your clients and potential clients may not be in business at the end of the year, even. Continue reading “Rejection Sucks”
It seems so simple, show up. Show up for work, your family, your friends, yourself. Yet, I have had a hard time showing up and doing what I need to be doing.
I could blame this on a whole bunch of different reasons. Of course, the ongoing pandemic has caused many to lose their jobs. Schools closed down for the remainder of the school year. My husband’s work shut down for six weeks, so he was around the house. My daughter’s car accident caused her to go on disability for six weeks.
So, many excuses, yet none of them should have derailed me.